I'm at the airport and have only had 90 mins sleep. Apologies if my answer is poorly explained. I highly doubt the change would have happened by itself. My worst times were when I was passive about my speaking. Just letting it happen and "hoping for the best" would lead to many problems arising. Then we wonder why we make no progress and all these bad things happen to us... We all need a burning desire to create change for ourselves. The process should consume your entire being. You'll be able to tell when somebody has put in the effort. Working hard is one thing but there's anyways more to be done. Much more.