commentr/StutterJuly 9, 2017

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Hello doc! *high fives* I hope you stick with it too. No doubt we've survived some of the hardest challenges in our lives, and it would be a shame if a speech impediment made all this pointless. There's no denying though that medicine is a cruel field, and it's just gonna be crueler to a doctor who can't effectively contribute. Subconsciously I've found myself sneering at speakers flubbing their presentations ("you didn't know that?" "What did you say?" "How are you in med school?"), despite my own disabilities. I always feel ashamed though. If I can be that cruel... It is my calling. A while ago my team had a CPC. I was the de facto leader for most of it; I took the history, made the diagnosis, formulated the algorithms for arriving at the diagnosis, made the deferentials, tracked down specialists for advice, etc. Then when it came time for the presentation, I probably said the least. I knew all the answers, but they just wouldn't come out, and what little I did say was a mess. Just reading the PowerPoint was a struggle. It was a scary wake up call... So awesome that you have a mentor to relate to. No such luck here I'm afraid. There's one consultant I caught stuttering during a conference, which did not recur again during rounds or any other time. He's a hard ass and resident-killer too, so probably no issues with anxiety there. I definitely won't stop here. I'll probably just be a GP in the meantime, though internal medicine is my calling. It's a problem that I'll have to fix as much as I can before moving on.

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School & WorkEmotional ExperienceSpeech & StutteringCauses & Variability

Subthemes

Employment & CareerAnxiety & Social JudgmentShame & EmbarrassmentBlocks & StoppagesPhysical TensionStress & Fight/Flight

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intimidation_authoritybeta_blockers