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Just started a new job... Honestly, the whole situation should be stressful for me and it's a huge company with people everywhere but I honestly (consciously) don't care if I stutter in front of them because I feel comfortable there. But I've been having so many blocks instead that I literally sound like I have some serious mental problems not even being able to form proper sentences because I'm trying to replace words so much that the sentence usually doesn't even make sense anymore. I literally can't speak even though I want to (normally I would want to avoid talking) And it's absolutely depressing the shit out of me, I feel so bad for the other person who has to stand there for a hour trying to listen to me try to ask a question when they have a lot of work to do and I just feel so awful that I am honestly tempted to offer to quit so they don't have to deal with it and me. No one has ever reacted badly to it at all either and they all have been understanding and been patient I just don't understand.. I am just so fed up with myself. Obviously, not much anyone on here could help with but I just needed to vent..