I love it man, I think we can have great conversations. you seem really aware. So true with its not just a speech problem. I dont believe it's a speech problem at all, it's an everything else problem. It's how you feel about yourself, it's the value you give to other peoples judgements, it's your self image, it's your relationship to your environment. I am also on nofap, that's a superpower. I'll send you a dm!