This isn't living, don't let anyone convince you it is. People our age are having sex, effortlessly meeting new people, reaching milestones. You aren't living, you're rowing upstream on a shitty raft. I really feel for you, it sickens me that we're shoved in corners like this and expected to be all jolly and happy. The whole "stuttering is a superpower" thing is also a load of horseshit. Nothing is super about stuttering.