commentr/StutterDecember 9, 2023

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That’s interesting. For me would say it was a lot that brought it out. Would say it was mostly stress like you. I was teaching English to Japanese college students, and kinda had a lot of anxiety doing this, though I loved it. We were a bit understaffed so I’d have to sit in a circle with like 10 students and basically get them talking, though I was doing most of the talking lol. It kinda started to come out there. Later I was also working retail at the same time, so lots of conversing. Plus it was my first job where my coworkers varied largely in age and professional/educational experience. I felt a sense of intimidation and imposter syndrome working around them. That caused some stress and confusion. Combine that with the fact that I’m on the Autism spectrum, so trying to navigate friendships and romantic relationships during my early 20’s was extra difficult, causing more stress and confusion. As well as always having this kinda deep intuitive feeling (whether true or not) that I am different from others. I reacted to this feeling by doing a combination between withdrawing from people, but also pursuing relationships with people. This still affects me to this day, but doing my best to push forward and break down the barriers I feel with myself and other people. Now I’m doing my absolute best to learn to communicate well in general with my peers, and those of any age. And just simply doing what I can to figure out who I am and my life purpose, and do it with confidence, you know. Would be curious what your thoughts are on this? It’s rare to start stuttering in the 20’s, so thought it’s kinda refreshing to know I’m not the only one here.

Themes

Causes & VariabilityEmotional ExperienceIdentity & Disability

Subthemes

Stress & Fight/FlightAnxiety & Social JudgmentIdentity & Self-Perception

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emotional_stateperceived_judgment