Don't be sorry! having been a genuine guinea pig I had about 4 SLP interns per year moderated by a very unpleasant woman who's name is now emblazon on the pre-pre-k school I was also sent to (with very low functioning children, I was repeatedly placed in these environments for no reason but my stutter). basically, because my parents were rightly afraid that I would be treated differently they handed me over to people who made sure that I felt like I should have the power to fix myself for the comfort of other people. NO PRESSURE KID. If I hear and SLP say they work with folks who have legitimate medical need the bristles are going down but... it's those whimsical people who feel like it's their calling to "fix" kids. Additionally, every time I have done anything important fluently the surprise of onlookers is not inspiring. fluency does not inspire me. People quote churchill "never, never, never forget" they get gd paperweights with this quote on it and all I can do is laugh til I cry wondering how much he meant to emphasize that never REALLY. "This person had a stutter but they fixed it and now they are revered" is one of the most dehumanizing things that almost every SLP I have met has broken the ice with. pretty much 0 SLPs I have met really truly understand stutterers they are employed to treat that so I just keep my ears up for the three letters to keep life simple! I'm going to change about as many SLPs that changed me HAHAHAHA I have never met a severe stutterer SLP but a lot who *overcame* lisps. I wonder often if stutterers get shitty care because fixing the kids with lisps puts air in intern's sails and the hopeless stuttering kids take the air right out. "just repeat that brown fox lazy dogs thing about 50000 more times! it' gotta work!!" HAHAHA