Thank you for taking the time to write your journey and sharing it, I absolutely agree stuttering can be like a beast on your back who suffocates you and gets in your head to the point that it's the first thing you think about when you wake up and the last you think about when you sleep. I'm now in the transitioning period if you could call it that, where experiencing disfluency doesn't bother me anymore but theres the occasional time where it gets under my skin. But now I'm hopeful for the future, I'm a senior at high school and now I do believe that a future where stutter isn't controlling my life is possible and it's great to see people who have experienced that as well.