commentr/StutterMay 6, 2024

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Now this a question: When I was in second grade there was this real shit kid who would go Sc, Sc, Sc, Sc to me whenever he saw me. My name is Scott and at that point in my life I did not have a stutter, but I began not long after. I truly believe that kid and what he did was a major contributing factor to me starting. I’m 42 now and I will never forget his name and to say I hope he got what he deserved is an understatement. My mom made fun of me once, although she’ll take to the grave I’m making it up. My father has Tourette’s, and even though he didn’t do what my mom did, he really fucked me up in other ways. A lot of my friends in high school made fun of me about it, some more vocal about it than others. Others would find indirect ways to do it, like once one of them discovered the song You Ain’t Seen Nothing Yet by BTO they would play it in the car all the time thinking it was funny. It’s tough, even though I’m 42 and the examples I just gave really only add up to about 6 years out of my life it still ruins me. Only in the last 5 or so years have I finally began to feel comfortable and confident, which has resulted in my stutter improving immensely and I have my wife and our dog to thank for that.

Themes

Anticipation & AvoidanceIdentity & DisabilityEmotional Experience

Subthemes

Experiential AssociationStigma & BullyingShame & EmbarrassmentAuthenticity vs. Masking

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saying_name_introductionperceived_judgment