How's that working out for you? Not well, I'd imagine. You wouldn't be posting like this on Reddit if you were happy or even content. Do you want people here to validate your self-hatred? To agree that we don't deserve friends or happiness because we stutter? Do you want to be alone forever? That's the logical outcome of your attitude. Either you cure your stutter or you remain alone because you don't deserve friends. There is no cure. Take some time to think this over. Do not respond. Think first. You aren't a fool. You aren't a bad person. You don't deserve to suffer like this.