Thank you for advice bro. I tried to be hygienic since I was a kid. I always tried to practice reading even in public at school. I try to be in football team, but students cheated on me, just wanted me to do their homework, then kicked me out of the game, What is really hurts me, when the English teacher once picked me accidently when I was in my way to school with his car, he said I always try to avoid you when you raise your hand to read any text or paragrahpe because I don't you to feel ashmed or other students would laugh at you. He thinks it was nice of him to say that, but It really broke me from inside. This was in 9th grade. When I grew up more and entered the universiry. I wanted to be an English translator/literaute. I'm from the middle East and my native language is Arabic'. I took some classes in English department and every time his memory come to the surface. I tried to fight it back, I failed. Just seeing others students in the class can speak English freely like birds and I can't. It's like my tongue freeze or words melted in my mouth. Even there was another student with another disability, he was blind, But he can practice reading in the class more than me. That broke me really hard,My mother was talking about I can't be a teacher. Students will torture me at school, this invented another nightmare for me, I left English department forever. My best friend from high school told me he doesn't want me anymore, he just wanted friends from his major which is medicine. He told me go and find friends from your colleauge I consider this as a big failure in my life. I lived in the dark for a while with loneliness, It was cozy and harmful at the same time. Then, I picked another major randomly and try to put up with it.