The harsh truth of it all is that we can't tell you a sure way to "cure" this. However, we can tell you that change starts small. And if you feel you really need help before destroying yourself, seek therapy and speech therapy. These are places where you won't be judged and you can express how you feel. Isolation is a silent killer. I'm in IT and just got a job as a help desk support. Imagine what I'll have to go through talking on the phone all day, but I can't quit without even trying. I guess what I'm also trying to say is that don't give up hope, try to get out there. We all know what you're going through, believe me!!