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What's wrong with my stammer? Hi! I've been following the community for a few month now and I've noticed my stammer is completely different. So I'm here to share my experience with you guys. 1. Users here usually say it's harder for them to speak foreign language, but it's different for me. I almost don't stutter in English (Although English is foreign laguage for me). I think it's because someone I talk to always realize I'm not a native speaker. I have some speach disfluency, but for average person it sounds like hesitation, not stuttering, which is fine for foreigners. They think it's not a disorder and that gives me confidence to stutter even less. Maybe it's because every single time I speak my native tounge it dredges up my painful childhood. Maybe it's because I hate my native language. Maybe it's because western society is more open-minded. I think it's because I like English, I really enjoy speaking it, that boost my confidence 2. I read some posts about people who said Atarax or another benzo helped them overcome stuttering, but it's different for me. For some reasons my stammer is much worse when I am on Atarax. Maybe because of stigma. Maybe I realize it's not who I am. Broadly speeking, I feel unusualy fatigued and sleepy. What works for me is stimulants such as caffeine and ritalin. These drugs make me anxious, but also confident. I'd say invincible. When I'm achieving my goals, When I'm satisfied with who I am I stutter less.