Had a embarrassing situation at rehearsal for presentation today
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Had a embarrassing situation at rehearsal for presentation today Have you ever heard the quote goes by ***'Public speaking is feared more than death'.*** Today while rehearsing for this week's presentation, I faced this. **Background**: Used to speak very fluently from the age of 3. In fact according to my family members I could remember anything and I could explain any situation thoroughly. Unfortunately I had a bad childhood and I used to be physically abused most of the time which triggered anxiety and fear in me. So much so that I used to be afraid of darkness and approaching to random classmate of mine. Speech impediment was intolerable during my school days and faced bullying for this as well, although there were some people who showed some empathy to my situation. Growing up I can speak better than I used to speak 10 years back. Problem occurs when I am excited or trying to explain something and pronouncing certain sentences that starts with vowels. From the past few months I thought I was improving but what happened today made me more skeptical. For the presentation I was assigned to do some of the research and making the entire slide. I did it very well and put some positive influence and impression over my peers. But when my turn came, I just couldn't speak and stopped after a certain time and had to bring out my bottle to drink some water. There were only 9 people and I was so damn anxious that couldn't utter a word. Although at 2nd and 3rd try I did relatively well still couldn't present and at some points or I was just telling it so fast. Do you know what's more worse? In this week I have to appear for presentation in front of 150 people. I did terrible in front of 9 people and can't imagine what will happen in front of 150 people. I am still practising and hoping for a good outcome. If I fail and then I will be image myself as clown to be honest. Here in third world countries, empathy is captilized by broken sect of people. I will let you know this update once I am done with it. ​ ​ ​ ​