You’ll get there. I came to this realization when I was physically unable to say any word without stuttering for about a week. It terrified me. Because my stutter now would be described as medium, but severe at times throughout the day, but I could still have conversations. During this week, I just couldn’t speak at all. My family took me to the doctor on the first day to make sure nothing was wrong physically, they took blood samples, and did an MRI. Nothing. Then, my stutter vanished completely. For a couple days It was as if I never had a stutter, and my voice was softer and higher pitched. It unsettled me in a way I’ve never felt before. My voice returned to normal, and the doctor gave the diagnosis of an atypical migraine (migraine affects, but no pain at all. My dad used to get migraines that follow the same pattern, but with pain instead of a stutter. So family history matched the diagnosis) Being able to see what having an extreme stutter was like, followed by having no stutter at all was a roller coaster to say the least. And this experience finally made me put how I felt about my stutter into words. It was weird though, I felt like I was in a tv show where a character gets to see what would change if some event hadn’t happened. So that’s how I came to find this peace. I don’t know if this helped you or not, but hopefully it did somehow.