Almost punched a bus driver today......It's Stutterering related.

Almost punched a bus driver today......It's Stutterering related. I post on this sub because I almost got physical with a bus driver who was being an absolute dick and not giving me a transfer and there is a direct correlation between that incident and stutterering. I'll tell how. First, I know if I hadn't stuttered in the given situation I would've gotten the transfer. I say this cause I usually don't and talk my way and reason into always getting a transfer.(Toronto has this shit new system of when to give or not give transers and I usually talk bus drivers out of it. Other people do it too and it's quite common for bus drivers to give transers in my particular situation if you ask them) Second, I stuttered so much that he won the arguemnt without having an argument. He probably thought I was a mental patient by the time it was all over. Stuttering kills your ability to argue and makes you look like a retard at times. I also hate it when people mis characterize my stutter for weakness. You know that look they get when you first stutter and people's head sort of turns to the side in confusion, amusement and embarrassment. I saw that shit perpetually. It gives them the upper hand and self-inferiorizes oneself. He wouldn't listen or take my concern seriously just cause I had a stutter. Lastly, it's a weird cycle. Stuttering-> Incoherence/lack of ability to arguemnt->Frustration->Anger->More stutterering. That stuff adds up very quickly and it's hard not to snap.(Not that I am entitled to do that) My hands were clenching and i was leaning in towards him. Then I realized the legal system was against me and i was going to do some shit that I was going to regret so I just walked out of the bus quickly telling him to go fuck himself. Good desicion. As arrogant of an ass as he was i realized he was just following rules and can't really argue with that. But yeah I think things would've been different if I hadn't stuttered. Even if he didn't give me a transfer I would've been less pissed off that's for sure.