Yes, I think all stutterers go through phases like this. There are just times when you feel helpless to the stutter and you can't help yourself from feeling down. But, as time goes on you have to put a positive spin on things or the stutter will eat you up. I am like you in that I only have a few close friends and would consider myself socially awkward. But, in reality what is wrong with that? I have started to embrace it as who I am; own your stutter and allow for it to be a part of you. Also, never let the stutter stop you from reaching your goals. Yes, you will have more challenges than the average person, but if it is something you truly desire it will be worth it in the end. I am going into a profession that is dependent on verbal communication and am aware of the challenges that lie ahead, but the end goal makes it all worth it. If you really can't get out of this "phase", I would suggest seeing a therapist (both speech and psychological) and they can help you even further. I guess my main take away from this message is that the best thing you could do for yourself is stutter with a confidence. I am still learning how to do this, but my mental health has been ten times better than it used to be. Good luck and hope you feel better!