It feels like adrenaline to me but everyone's talking about dopamine
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It feels like adrenaline to me but everyone's talking about dopamine 30yo male. Mom stuttered but grew out of it in high school. I also temporarily grew out of mine in early high school, but it came roaring back triply worse after I got a car at 16. I got my first car, put a cd player in it, and would listen to hip hop really loud. I would think of something fantastical that could occur in my near future and my adrenaline would go crazy, heart rate way up, muscle pump, etc. I was doing that every day while driving alone, and my stutter went from being all but forgotten about to taking even "yes", "no", and "thank you" from me within a couple of years. I didn't make the correlation between intense music and stuttering until my early 20's. Listening to loud music in my car was my release. I can't help but think that I permanently messed up my neuronal wiring at an age so critical for development. I mostly avoid music these days, because I can easily elicit that same response today and then my stutter will worsen in severity for the following days. Anyway, I know all the talk nowadays is about dopamine hyperactivity. And I know that dopamine, adrenaline, and noradrenaline are closely connected. But the response I get from music doesn't feel anything like getting a tinder match, jerking off, or getting a pubg dinner. Anyone relate to this to this at all? I've scoured the internet for any similar stories but can't find anything. The difference that avoiding this response makes in my stuttering is night and day. This brings some sense to the old beta blocker route, but again, I can't find any stories similar to my own. I could never stomach the side effects of propranolol even at very low doses, so I have long term experience with it. Also, I avoid stimulants. I take green tea extract on weekdays, but I even cycle off that for a week or two every three months or so. Caffeine improves my stutter until I develop a tolerance, then my speech gets way worse unless I keep increasing the amount of caffeine. Yep, this was my attempt at keeping this short and sweet.. Just wondering if anyone else had made the correlation between intense music and stuttering.