I can relate 100% I get incredibly nervous since I cant say my own name. When I went to soccer games, the players would need to check in with the refs and say their names when called by their number. I would purposely show up late to games to avoid that. The times I did go, I was incredibly nervous and my heart was beating at like 500 BPM. I don't think about what an event is like, I think about if I need to say my name there and who is there. Also, the letter that my name begins with (B) Is the hardest letter for me to say at the beginning of a word. Other sounds are Eh and Ah. I get you 100% and I feel the same way!