I've never developed good social skills and that combined with stuttering and that combined with talking to a girl I like just makes me unbearable. I can't even look at them afterwards. I attempt to get a few words out and everything I have thought of over the past weeks or even months just goes down the drain. I'd blush so much because I'm worried ill stutter. The worst part is that I feel like I'd be sociable if it weren't for my stutter, maybe even an extrovert. Maybe I'd go out and talk to people. I try to control it by being more calm which works most of the time. The stutter was definitely the issue for some of them. But you might be right. Everytime I would search up part time jobs that don't involve talking to public I'd get very few things. I just wanted to avoid restaurants completely because i think that jobs might switch and I'd get drive thru. Even if its for like and hour I still wouldn't want to risk stuttering and wasting peoples time, then when they drive up to the window they would look at me like an idiot. Or having a group of guy drive up and laugha do make jokes. I'm worried ill get a bad job that I'm not happy with and will just make my life worse because of options that are gone. I want to be able to make enough money to have a wife. I dont want kids because of the risk of them having dysphemia as well. I couldn't live knowing I'd put my kids through the same pain I had. I could adopt them. Thank you, I am feeling better. And having more faith for my future.