In truth, the person who judges your stuttering the most is you (unless the person opposite is stupid and there's nothing we can do about that). I know stuttering is frustrating and can make you feel humiliated because of it, but other people pay a lot more attention to what you say than how you say it. Ultimately people may feel sad for you, but in this case try to talk about your disability with others and how to react, this will allow you and your listeners to be more at ease. There is also a paradox in stuttering, which is that the more you try to be fluent, the more you will put pressure on yourself and the more you will block, which is why desensitization and acceptance of your stuttering are also important, but I know that it takes time to build acceptance (even I can't fully accept it yet) I don't know if you've ever seen a speech therapist but I recommend it, it could help you better manage your stuttering and accept it. Perhaps a psychologist could also be helpful for self-esteem issues.