Not necessarily. I'm not going to echo the commentators down below who say do it anyway, because I agree with them as someone who has dealt with not only stutter, but dysarthia and word blocking but started streaming when my speech was maybe at its worst, and did a performance degree. We all know its possible to do stuff regardles of impairment. But, what I do want to pick up on is not necessarily. I sometimes sit and go 'oh but if I could walk I'd do A, B and C' - but I stop myself because I have no idea what I would do and would not do if I could walk and tying a percieved ideal function to an unattainable ideal self is just a way to fail. I'll never walk, thinking about what I may or may not do if I ever did is not ony a fallacy due to the 1st premise being an assumed productivity that may not be present, it's also just not useful. Your last line 'I would live normally, take so much for granted and not realise how much of a wonderful fucking life I'm living' - that's what you're doing now. It's normal to feel bad about stuff somtimes, its normal to have negative reactions - hell, its even getting to normal to deal with depression and anxiety, impairments like stuttering aside. Speaking philsoophically, psychologically - every single person on this earth has a self they want to strive for and will never get, its part of being a human - but the more you work with the self you have now, the closer you get to quieting that #ah yeah but only' voice. You know you now, you can work with you now. You can't work with an imagined ideal. Stop taking stuff for granted, go stream, go do whatever you wanna do - stutter or not, you're perfectly capable of it, you're just telling yourself you aren't through hiding behind the 'but only if i I didn't stutter' idea. TL:DR - the ideal self is unobtainable for everyone. Work with the self you have, the self you are and you'll get to a place where the ideal and the self you are become closer.