Thanks for your reply. Accepting stutter is hard, especially when you see happy world around without that, and many possibilites that requires fluent. I'll try some more sport activity, it may helps for the mind. I had been doing that, but in last days i left everything and can only sleep and sit with overthinking. Paradoxally having more social life could help, but its hard to go outside knowing how its ends (with blocks and embarassment). My stutter holding me back. Speech therapy didnt help me, loud reading also, but i still sometimes doing it, hoping to get better.