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I just need to vent. I work as a dog groomer, which can be difficult when dealing with clients and communicating. I get remarks about my speech regularly and I apologize profusely to my coworkers because I dont do the phones. When I first started, I tried to suck it up and do phones but that led to a pet parent thinking her dog died, rather than him just being ready for pick up. I am constantly anxious and feel an immense amount of guilt because I feel like I dont pull my weight in the salon. I put out just as many dogs and decent grooms... but my inability to answer phones stresses me out. I wake up every morning filled with anxiety over it. Despite coworkers saying its fine, I always have a feeling gnawing at me that I'm just a pain in their ass that they're stuck with now. I assumed that was just my anxiety and tried to convince myself of that. On Wednesday, I came home and discovered that my daughter had head lice for the first time. I had to wash literally 7 loads of laundry... Plus treating her and myself. I was discussing with my boss whether or not I could come in late Thursday or move my dogs to Sunday as I still wasn't booked for that day. She accidently texted me something intended for someone else... and maybe I'm thinking too far into it, I dont know. She had copy and pasted my text and followed with, "thats from Alex, shes not coming in. I can see that now". I know that lice isn't the end all be all but I struggle enough to cope with general adult things... and I rarely wake up to even my sixth alarm in the morning. There was honestly no way I would have been able to get everything done that I had to do and still be up in time for work. Needless to say. I just feel like my anxious thoughts have been verified and I am, in fact, a pain in the ass that they're now stuck with. I am dreading Sunday and I just want to quit. I dont want to go in. Anyway, thats the extent of my venting I think. To anyone who made it this far, thanks for listening. 💕