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I’m so upset right now I hate everything about this stutter, it ruins my social life. I never talk in class or ever try to socialize because I’m always nervous it will activate. And it only activates when I’m nervous, so it’s a never ending cycle of anxiety. I can’t say my name or order food anywhere. I don’t raise my hand, I hardly talk out of my house. So many people comment on it, but I never have the time to say anything. I’m in orchestra class and for Covid-19 you are assigned instruments, and I didn’t get one. There wasn’t a instrument with my name on it, and there’s no way I can ask for one because I would stutter. So everyday I have to work around it and take someone else’s instrument, and it’s very stressful. That’s bad enough, but something happened today I will never forget. I was assigned a assignment with a partner in a topic I thought I was knowledgeable on, so we started like normal. I was talking my way through it because I was confident in my ability to do this assignment, but we hit a block. At the end of period we weren’t done and were a little confused. So we asked the teacher for help. And that’s when for some reason I got super anxious, and my stutter kicked in. It was bad. Recently when I stutter I don’t get air, so my mouth forcibly breathes. My mouth opens and closes to get air, but this makes my lips pop. So as I’m trying to talk my mouth starts doing this with a horrible popping sound. And since I have a mask on all they hear is the sound. I looked like an idiot in front of my classmate and teacher. After class I speed walked out of the school vowing to never talk in class again. I’m so mad right now I let this happen. My story doesn’t do it justice for how embarrassing it was. Now I know. Don’t talk and it won’t happen.