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Young, lost, and looking for help. Hello, people of reddit. My name is Leif in case you can't tell in my username, and I have had a stutter my entire life. I am 14 years of age, and already hating highschool due to the fact that I cannot socialize for shit. I can barely talk, much less do anything orally in class, and because of it, I have C's in almost every class because I refuse to speak. I can't do it. I've tried so many types of therapy and none of it has helped. I'm not willing to talk in groups (but still do the work), and so it makes me look like I'm not trying to help. I've been kind of playing the "unable to speak" game. But after a while, it gets old. Especially after 14 years of doing it. I don't know if I can take it anymore (not considering suicide). I think I might just give up speaking. The only thing I can speak through is music (I play bass and tuba), but I feel like I am almost pointless. I'm also super fucking sick of people saying "Don't worry, God will help!" Like shut the fuck up, if God existed I wouldn't have a stutter in the first place. If you have read the full post, I highly appreciate you taking the time to. Just something I want off my chest.