I cried when I found this discussion..the struggle is real

I cried when I found this discussion..the struggle is real I literally broke down reading this discussion, not because your posts were sad, but because stuttering was/is a huge part of my life and is responsible for part of who I am today yet I was alone, being 35 now nobody in my family had it and I never met anyone else especially female that had it. My struggles were always only known to myself. Such a major part of my life and nobody understood the struggle. It is such a lonely world for speech impediment disorders. I would watch people speak and just know they took the act of talking for granted. Getting bullied was a daily activity, people looking at me either like they felt sorry for me or that I must be mentally handicapped. People would lose patience and just walk away in the middle of me trying to finish a sentence. I was really bad when I was younger however, The good news I got 75% better when I was 13-14. As an adult I still stutter I just feel I got better at knowing the words I will stubble on before I say them and quickly try to switch it out. Oddly I am in the military and an instructor for my job standing up in front of and talking to 24 members daily. I still get embarrassed and I still get made fun of but over the years you just develop a thicker skin and an understanding that they don't understand. I still get angry when someone tells me to slow down, that does not work for me. I still get annoyed that everyone I tell, literally everyone say they stutter too 🙄😡! I have a 13 year old boy...talk about being terrified and he developed a stutter when he was 5-7 but only lasted a year or so and dr's think it was because he heard the way I talked. It has never came back and I am unbelievably grateful. My brother didn't have it, why did I? Ugh I'll always wonder. I used to think it was cause I have an extra hangy down thingy. I am also the only left handed person in family, only one pigeon toed, and have a specific learning disability. Wth did my mother do while she was only pregnant with me?!?! Seriously. Sorry for long post guess I needed to get stuff of my chest.