Man I gotta say, America is a group project. If you don't have support its going to be super hard to make it. For me it has taken an boatload of discipline but everyday is still a struggle. I'm going to be honest and I hope you understand that this is coming from a place of genuine care: 1. Feeling like you have to stand and confront an 80 yr old woman with violence shows that you are extremely emotionally immature or maybe even disturbed. Walk away, ignore, brush it off, laugh it off. This is easier said than done when you have no coping skills. 2. If you were in a special class your whole life, theres probably a reason. Those classes cost the school more and they would rather mainstream people that need help than place kids that do not in a special class. Not agreeing with the treatment or diagnosis, just saying, find someone who can recognize what the underlying problem is before you blame school and family. 3. You are 28 yrs old. Not everyone will be wildly financially or professionally successful in life, but there are still things can render you successful. Ask yourself some hard questions about who you are, what your talents are, and what you want to be. tbh honest you don't have to be able to read or even talk to be good at something and happy. In Japanese its called IKIGAI. 4. Find your IKIGAI, the reason you wake up every-morning. And leave your grandma alone man. Be respectful, without her, you wouldn't even be here. Maybe show her some love today. ​