I get depressed about not being able to outwardly be the person I know I am and I start to smoke a lot of weed and isolate myself. Then suddenly something in me will change. My stutter improves, and I have a more positive outlook on life. Yeah I stutter, but there are people out there with no home, no family, a debilitating disease. I stay in this mindset for a while, then I’ll have a horrible stuttering episode...those ones that replay over and over in your head. Afterwards, I start smoking weed and isolating again. I’ve been on this cycle for about 4 years now. Right now I’m on a positive streak and I’m trying to make it last!