I feel you. I took public speaking in college and it actually helped me a lot. I really didn’t want to screw up because I’d have multiple speeches in the class. What significantly reduced performance anxiety/stutter for me was to NOT have a rehearsed script for whatever I had to present. Just having bullet points of things to talk about made me come across way more naturally and thus way less stuttering. I think my brain was more preoccupied thinking about what I needed to say about a topic that it calmed me down in a weird way. I had a ton of success in public speaking doing this. I did not practice in front of anyone before a speech and I also did not practice to myself. I just made sure I knew enough about whatever topic I had and noted the proper bullet points. It wasn’t perfect by any means but I never felt embarrassed after a speech. But not everything was bullet points. For really important stuff I had somewhat written parts. Honestly, a big part of why I discovered this for myself was extreme laziness lol. I did not feel like writing any speeches or practicing. Finding ways to not care about a speech will also be EXTREMELY helpful. For me, the things that help we not care as much and/or calm down beforehand were: - Going after the first one or 2 people. It’s horrible going first but you do not want to sit in your anxiety til the end. - thinking about something you are looking forward to after the speech (eating, sleeping, gaming, etc). This is a big one for me. Also, it’s very important to try and practice the habit of stopping your speach completely when you start to stutter instead of fumbling and/or saying “umm” a bunch of times. It will be way less awkward.