My stutter got so worse

My stutter got so worse So I've finished highschool and giving exams for collegeand been like 3months I've spoken to anyone other than my parents. Today after my last exam I had to go with my friends house. While there his parents were talking to me and I was like stutterering like no tomorrow I felt so suffocated and sad because i wasn't able to answer their questions I struggled to say my name too fuck this life man I don't want to live if i continue to speak like this ..