exactly. I try to "compensate" for my stuttering with perfectionism in everything I do. and like you said, everyone gives me attention and approval. At school everyone always waited for my presentations because it was one of the best done. Hell, I spent a month repeating and repeating the lines every day, morning and night, so that nothing went wrong. At the time I liked everyone's proud eyes and the applause, but seeing it now years later, it was just me trying to mask my stutter. It was very exhausting to do that, but in my mind I had to impress so that they wouldn't be embarrassed and pay attention to my stuttering. oh man that hurts