I am not sure how to reconcile with this stuttering. I’ve been trying to deal with the stuttering for a long time. But, as times went by, I couldn’t get away from the feeling that I am a half person. And I imagined that I speak fluently. But it will not do with my emptyness which is always with me, like when talking with my family, my friends, my coworkers. I may feel so happy with my fluency. But it will be not much different as I have a great hair after I get my hair cut. I am not sure how my future goes. This means I am not sure whether my stuttering is gone or not. I heard that some of stutteres cure them of their stuttering. But I am not sure whether it could happen to me. So I’ve decided to try to love myself. The moment I stammer, stutter in front of many people is definetely frustrating. But I have to find even one thing even in that moment that can see the moment in a positive way and have to give myself compliment. I have to be the man standing next to myself and saying that it’s gonna be all right, at least you are blah-blah- I will not choose the eyes that see me as a werid person and a disable person like everyone around me. Because If I choose it, there will be no one who feel compassion with me. But it’s sooooooo difficult. I need to focus the present every and each moment and try to be with myself. Sometimes I lose myself.