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I blame my parents... I've posted this on another subreddit, but I found this one and feel it is much more relevant here. First things first, I love my parents to bits and would totally do anything for them. I have a bit of a speech impediment which over the years has reduced my self-esteem to zero. This is something that I got from my mother I think, quite a few people in my mother's family outright stutter (mine though is what happens when people try to talk a little too fast, or so I've been told. Technically I'm a closet stutterer, though I'm unsure if this is even a thing. I try and avoid certain words/syllables at all costs and I have good and bad days. For instance the word 'legislature' is my yardstick, when I can say it out loud three times without it sounding like a death rattle I know I'm going to have an okay day). My parents always try to make light of the issue but it kills me internally, every time when I mess a word or something up. This is also probably why I've never had the courage to ask a girl out (I'm 27, still a virgin), the shame of slurring or messing up what I want to say overpowers pretty much everything (and my severe lack of confidence which I know they can probably sense). I know the world isn't fair or anything but I feel a little hard done by. I feel like I was broken and crumpled up, and then left to fend for myself in this oh so cruel world. I can't really talk about this to anyone because for one I'm not very good at articulating what I want to say, and because there's no one who'd understand without just belittling my predicament. Where I'm at, therapy is just not an option, and people who go to therapy are deemed crazy (we're a little behind the times). It gets hard to bear sometimes and I've considered killing myself but I'm too much of a coward. Besides, I couldn't do that to my mother. Anyway, I really don't know what I expected out of this, but it feels nice to get this out.