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Yes, I am in my first year of PhD, organic chemistry. Now abroad for 1 year internship (yes, I was really nervous before going abroad to see people which I don’t know and only communicate in English, in which I stutter more than in my mother tongue, but chalanged myself). I personally don't have much trouble with presentations, because as I am part of a research group, we have to present quite often (usually every 2 weeks). But lately, I feel like I just stutter more and more. I developed a stutter later in my life (started at 15, but really developed in my early 20s), so maybe my stutter is that kind of continuously deteriorating, which is not encouraging at all and kind of depressing. It is just sad. I would love to be able to discuss freely and clearly my thoughts and ideas with others but it seems will never happen. Now, I just want to enjoy my stay abroad and travel a lot. When I will come back, I will probably have some teaching assistance which I think I will handle OK, but it will be kind of embarrassing I guess. Anyway, I am really glad that I am not alone PhD stuttering student here. Interestingly, we had some postdoc, who had stutter as well, but mostly when presenting. His presentations were not so good, because he tried to hide it so much that he could not explain the topic well. So for me, as I am able to express myself so that others understand what I am trying to say, I am OK. But when my speech will be so bad that people don't understand, it starts to be really hard, I don't know what I will do. I hope this will never come.