I've been where you are I'm not even kidding you literally sound like how I did a year and a half ago. I suffer from anxiety, depression and a stutter as well. I put off getting a job for nearly 3 years after graduating high school because I was so afraid of getting a job bc of my stutter but I promise you it's not nearly as bad as your brain is telling you. I tore myself up over it for years and felt worse and worse and contemplated killing myself bc I felt worthless until I finally got myself out there. there is hope for you dont give up yet my guy I know how hard it can be being insecure of your stutter. like the previous commentor said I would definitely get your mental health checked up on. I'm sorry to hear what you're going through right now I know it's hard. but I believe in you even if you dont believe if yourself please take care. you can do this