Having trouble with soft quiet voice and trying to control speech

Having trouble with soft quiet voice and trying to control speech When I zoom call with my speech therapist or talk with friends online/on the phone I don’t really stutter that bad, but I feel like even talking at a regular volume is kinda hard for me with people I’m not close with and if I quiet and soft like normal they don’t hear me and I have to repeat myself, stutter, embarrass myself, and if I try to speak louder I feel stupid, it makes my speech worse and I’m a little self conscious cause I feel like it sounds stupid and forced (even without the stutter). At home I talk loud enough. Anyone else have this problem and how can I work on it?