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Anyone know what’s going on with me? Hey guys. Stuttered somewhat as a little child. Stuttered very mildly early in my high school years, I guess a mild covert stutterer. Had one slightly traumatic experience when I stuttered out loud in class and class was shocked. Before that no one in my class would have guessed based on my occasional disfluencies. Went to a speech pathologist twice (21M) but was diagnosed as a “non-stutterer.” I feel like 98% fluent. Sometimes I have a mild speech block when I’m trying to tell someone something in a huge crowd. Sometimes if someone catches me off guard and randomly starts talking to me out of nowhere, I experience mild speech blocking. Sometimes in a huge crowded party, when I’m trying to talk to someone I have mild speech blocking at the beginning of a sentence. Other than that, when I’m speaking to someone in a one on one setting, I’m ~99% fluent. Everyday conversations with groups of friends, family, strangers, even when I’m slightly nervous or preoccupied with something, im 99% fluent. Sometimes when I’m excited and the conversation is loud and I’m trying to interject something, maybe I have an unnoticeable speech block here and there, but I think that falls in the category of loud environment. When I don’t give a fuck, I’m 99% fluent. When I’m doing interviews, fuck me, is the speech blocking bad. Every other sentence vocal chords close up and I have to stop, exhale, and complete the sentence. Half the time that doesn’t work. Anyone know what to do here? Maybe a short term solution I could use for six weeks, maybe 1-2 times a week? I’ve tried benzos and for me I think they work very well. I feel like I don’t have any speech blocking at all on them during interviews. Maybe every 12 sentences, 1 mild speech block or so. Any idea what the problem is (excess dopamine, etc.). Would Baclofen work? Meditation? Self-hypnosis? Anything please, I’m frustrated out of my mind here.