All I can say is, you are really brave by going through all of that! Infact, each one of us (stutterers) are brave. We do a lot of hardwork to achieve the same communication skills as a normal person. When we speak some words clearly we get a lot happier on which a normal person doesn't. If life gives you reasons to cry, it probably gives you reasons to be happy. Stand proud, you've tolerated all of these! As for the memories, speaking of myself I have very little memories with friends. But, I have a large amount of memory I spent with myself! All the jokes I thought in my mind but didn't tell anyone, but it's still a joke. Enjoying the movie but not telling anyone, but still you have enjoyed the movie. You talked and spend time with yourself SOO much. Are there any rules for a good memory? Like should there be more than one person for a memory to be good? NO. So memory of you with yourself counts too. Can I know you're from which country?