My stutter wasnt there always. And that persona is the closest to my behaviour before it started. As i said its not really an act but its not exactly sincere either. Its a part of me. The whimp is my learned behavior that started with stuttering. Id like to say its not the real me but its a part of me no matter how much i dont like it .I have a terrifying fear of intimacy. And if someone asks me which girl i like, what i want from life.... I get an adrenaline rush like im getting mauled by a bear. I am afraid of showing anything to anyone. Not just my stutter but anything private.