In my eyes, stuttering is still a big unknown to the public. I'm tired of their confused looks accompanied by the thought that they've probably just met a retard. I'm tired of the anxiety at knowing that I'm stuck on this word and that word for a completely trivial matter to handle that a five-year-old could handle. I'm tired of not being able to express myself 100% the way I want to. I'm tired of all the psychological issues that come with it. Of course becoming mute wouldn't solve literally everything but it would get rid of the anxiety associated with being awkward in the moment and misjudged by people. A friend once said to me "You're a completely different person online than you are in real life" and he's right, of course he's right because I can fucking express what I want, when I want and how I want here. What I write is ME, what I show out there is far from me. Before anyone writes to expose myself to situations more so, thanks for the advice but it didn't work. Next. "Your stuttering doesn't define you" sorry, but that's just horrible COPIUM. It's probably my problem that I don't believe in it, but I don't. I could write like this on 50 A4 but hopefully we understand each other.