I deem it to be impossible, that's why I have given up trying to be social. Too much work and not enough energy. I have embarrassing moments almost every day when I'm outside of the house and quite frankly, I'm exhausted of it. Today for example; the idiot bus driver (he does this a lot) forgot to open the back door of the bus. It took me 3 attempts to say "back door please" in front of a full bus. I felt like shit after. With that said, the only time I feel good is when I get a good grade in school. Without the feeling of achievement I'd probably put a pistol in my mouth and pull the trigger because that is all I have.