postr/StutterJanuary 15, 2025

Today I had Group Discussion practical in college

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Today I had Group Discussion practical in college I'm proud that I did it. I'm glad atleast it is over. The topic was related to AI A little backstory, I developed stutter since class 5, it is purely psychological for me, I was 70% fluent with friends and family. But with strangers I stutter more than half the time. We were given 2 mins time to prepare our speeches. There were 12 seats, with 12 students, and one teacher. Other than that the room was empty. Firstly, there were 2-3 who gave impressive points, and then a few added their points. All these while I had my points ready but couldn't muster up the courage. Finally, towards the end, I started with "Good Morning, my name is ........ and I would like to add". my points were only 2, short in length too but oh god, my lips and mouth were dry as a wood when I was speaking. I repeated tons of words, couldn't speak properly and got stuck vehemently. I did not dare to look at the reaction of others, my eyes were fixated at the teacher. She was supportive of my issue too. Did anyone mock me? Not that I know of. Did anyone laugh?Idk but I could hear some faint whispering when I was struggling to speak. The feeling is worse than having surgery, my chest felt heavy, mouth felt dry, I was shivering while speaking, my tongue got in the way. My brain was clouded with anxiety too. But hey, atleast it's over. I don't care about the marks at all, but I felt confident that I tried to face my fears atleast. I just wanted to share my story with you all. Oh what happened after that? I just picked up my bag and left, did not talk to anyone regarding this.

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Causes & VariabilityEmotional ExperienceSpeech & Stuttering

Subthemes

Trauma & PsychologicalAnxiety & Social JudgmentBlocks & StoppagesPhysical Tension

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public_speakingemotional_state