I stutter the most around people that I have openly stuttered with before. Whether it is because I don’t have the energy to employ my tradecraft to become the “unstuttering” me with those who already know my ‘secret’, or perhaps because I want those who I consider closest to me to want to talk to me about what it’s like, and maybe even want pity or more likely compassion,- either way this is and always has been the pattern that my “choosing to stutter” has been.