I think the biggest thing that can happen to us is we start beating up our own selves, making the problem worse. I used to notice, even before I spoke, I would BELIEVE that I would stutter. For years, there was an unshakable BELIEF I had that said "I'm going to stutter. I'm about to stutter on this word. When I talk to him/her, I'm going to stutter real bad and feel terrible about myself." I think thinking like this is one of the worst obstacles to deal with, because it is really difficult to change this long-term mental habit, and that strong belief will help produce that reality. I really think you shouldn't be adverse going to a speech therapist. Try and let go of your fears, and push through, seeking help is in no way shameful. I know exactly, what you mean, as I'm sure a lot of us here do.