I feel you. I honestly don’t know if I’ve ever made a friend by initiating conversation myself. Just try to remember that you’re still so young and you’re first date won’t be your last (unless you’re lucky and find your soulmate right away haha). It sounds corny, but it’s a real journey man. You’ll face ups and downs but that’s part of it. I’ve come home from dates in tears just from how awful it went, but looking back on it now I’m glad I had those experiences. They help you learn and grow, and they help you find what you want. When you’re on that first date and your palms are sweating, and your anxious thoughts are racing, take a moment to step back. You got a date and you’re going to be sitting across from a beautiful person who was interested in you. Think about how your friends and family are at home to support you no matter what. Think about how a younger version of you would be so happy for you sitting there on a real date. You got this, man.