it’s amazing how much of a mental game stuttering is for some people. it’s definitely like that for me. the fear of stuttering makes my stutter worse. when i would talk to someone i didn’t care if i stuttered in front of, it would be fluent or damn near close. but someone i wanted to impress or a stranger, it was 100x worse. when i’m alone, i can speak like i’m giving the state of the union address, but turn on a camera, i will stutter. i think it’s great you’re going into that field. no one understands it more than a person who is going through it. i can definitely say i have had the same feelings you’re having right now. it feels almost hopeless. but i promise you that it gets better with patience and practicing putting yourself into uncomfortable situations. nothing you can do will ever change the fact that you stutter. it’s not as if you woke up one day and decided “hey i’m gonna stutter” this is something that you can’t help and that most people who have it will have to manage for the rest of their life. you have to decide what type of life you want to live from here forward. a shuttered one because you fear the opinions of strangers, or a fulfilled life because you’re comfortable enough in your own skin that some loser who doesn’t accept you for who you are doesn’t effect you. i hope you choose the latter. but just know, it’s easier said than done. a million people can tell you exactly what i just said, and it will never hit home until you make that decision yourself.