Thanks for your reply and for sharing your story. What do you believe is on the other side? I know you said I have to figure it out but I don't know what it could be. I mean, in my dreams, I would overcome it and start living the life I want to. Start talking to people without worry, having a good job and finding someone who will like me and accept me for who I am and too want to start a family. More so, I want to make my parents proud. I know they don't like my speech and they did a lot - put me through school and whatnot to have the life I have right now.