You say therapy is useless and all that. Both for mental health and stuttering. Have you ever tried it? I mean honestly tried it. I've stuttered my whole life. Sometimes it was brutal, sometimes not so bad. But it's always there. Depends on my stress level really. But the most noticeable improvement was when I started taking therapy seriously. I know how bad it can get. Trust me, I've been there. You never forget the faces of 100 people as you stutter your way through a speech that is way too long. You never forget all the social anxiety that comes with a stutter. I still have it. Like I have a very hard time approaching people. I literally have to force myself to talk to people sometimes. I too tend to be on the reclusive side but I make efforts to be social. When it comes down to you, I think a lot of it is your mindset. And here comes the hard truth that it pains me to write even though I hardly know you. Right now I don't think you are going to get any better because you have a defeatist mindset. To me it sounds as if you have given up. You need to change that. It won't be easy. It will be very hard. I do think therapy can help if you take it seriously and find the right therapist to help you. Stuttering is the albatross around our necks for all of us here. We can let it drown us, or we can fight and rise above it.