Man I wish I would be like you, I tried... but then I have bad days or it can be just one and I don't live with integrity, and the people I bother or well... if you stand up for yourself that's good but that makes a lot of people dont like you or sth u know and then the bad day and I avoid, I submit to everyone like a bloody pathetic serf and I just let them interrupt me and everything, substitute words, even just not saying.... not saying my words you know... and then .... yeah. It's not just laughing, mockering me, it's interrupting me, don't let me finish, walk away from me etc. Sometimes it's like yeah I get it, when u walk by and say hi I say it longer time so you won't just stop I get it man, but you know. If there's sth I know I couldn't stand up for myself, be aggressive like I am dependent on others, fckin slave. If I would be able to be a monster, to fight back then it's easy I don't care....